My Life.My Style

"Medicine, Law, Business, Engineering, these are noble pursuits necessary to sustain life, but poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for!"    -Dead Poets Society

It’s been some time, but I still haven got over it yet.

There were ppl who were tryin to teach me sth, help me thru, give guidance, build me up… But everything was movin too fast for me. I tot I wasn’t ready.  There were some problems here and there, I wavered, unsure abt wad was I dng there .. It’s not juz me & wad I like dng anymore, there were more to it. Then there were expectations & responsibilities.. I wasn’t strong enuf to hold on. Gradually, I let go… and I think I let several ppl dwn too..

Sure, I had reasons (or excuses u wld say), bt besides those, I was tired. And I din like how it felt.. I dun wanna be tired abt sth I love dng! it juz doesn’t fl rite… I’m tired coz everything came one aft another & I was glad to tk a break.

I handled this thing like a kid, I noe.. I really wanna do sth abt it but I took the ‘dead’ way, I walked outta it. I gave no reasons nor explanations.. I dun hp for understanding at dis pt. Bt I noe dat ultimately, I still owe dem sth..

Now it’s really tough to pick up wads left behind..

But dat was wad I did.. I din hol’on tite, to sth i claimed to be a passion, it sld sld have been my life..

Aft attending the lectures, I came to dis clear realisation that the many things I’ve taken for granted came at the expense, labour and effort of many others. From food on my table, to physics theories, to the instantaniety of accessing info w a click on the mouse.. I’ve never really given the origin of these things serious tots for they reside so naturally in our daily lives that they seem to have just ‘been there all these while’… It reminds me that we are the more privileged - being in a more priviledged era, a more priviledged society, and of more privileged groups…