My Life.My Style

I took more den 2 hrs to get home frm sch 2day.

Clementi to amk, but through a much much longer way. I took it once. The journey seemed shorter then.. 

My ipod plugged in, lost in my own world of music and sights.

Top deck, left side, window seat, 5th from the back. Feels like it, coz i din really counted the last time.

I think i took the bus ard the same time the other time. I can only rmb that the colour of the sky’s abt the same..

And i juz sat dere and let the bus retrace the very same route.

I was tired, my eyes grew heavy for a few times.. but when they close, sight gave way to thoughts.

Not wad i needed den. I have quite enuf on my mind.

I wanted to look at the places it passed by, just for one more time. Coz i dun think i ever wanna tk dat bus again. Clementi all the way to amk.

That emptiness im feelin, keeps remindin me dat sth’s missing.. different from the last time.

Ppl came on and off the bus. At times, s’one sat nxt to me, some other time, i was all alone; with the songs, and the sights.

Sth IS missing.. or isit juz different? Not sure..

By the time I reached amk, it’s alrdy dark. 8+, gng 9.

I pressed the bell and got off, but not w/o some balancing act, trying to grab hold of the handles ard.

I watched the bus move off b4 startin on my walk hm.

Damn. I juz wasted 2 over hrs.

And wad was dat feeling dat kept buggin me?

Rite. It WAS different.

The 1st time i took the bus, it was a mistake.

This time, I chose to take it.

The 1st time, I was talking.

This time, I was listening.

The 1st time, I was missing out, concentrating on sth else.

This time, i took in all the sights.

The 1st time, no one else came to sit beside me.

This time, I was aware who was by my side.

The 1st time, i had no struggle in getting off, i noe i wun fall.

This time, I got off on my own. Struggled, but i was still safe.

The 1st time, I took the bus bcoz u were dere.

U assured me that it will get us to whr we wanna go, dat u’ll be dere, to sit beside me, talk to me, hold me tite, kp me safe. So i took it, i dun mind the distance, i dun mind the time. Bcoz u promised.

U’re rite.

U did all that u promised, but the bus din get us whr we wanna go.

So this time. I’m takin the bus myself.

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